I hope you are well. I have a question to ask about marriage and if it forbidden in my case. Some background about myself:
1) Due to my parents being raised as orphans/poor, my sister and I had a bad childhood. Also in part because of “religious” people around me, I had been misinformed about Islam being a harsh religion. While I have gotten past the emotional trauma, I am still anti-social and can not enjoy other outside pleasures such as hanging out with friends, socializing, etc.
2) I work with multiple other daees around the world and, having seen the poor state of dawah knowledge (not the Islamic sciences) among even Islamic scholars, I may have to travel to various countries for the purpose of improving this for future Muslims. Thus, my future will involve constant travel.
3) Having worked with refugees and homeless people, much of my time is spent on this and is another reason why I choose to live simply and often avoid socializing.
Given the fact that I have such anti-social and “harsh” views of the world, it is a very strong possibility that I can be unjust to any future family I have. Thus, would I have to avoid marriage? (Keep in mind that getting therapy will be problematic and may not be possible. I should also point out that I do NOT suffer from any anger management issues. I just lack emotional stability.
Wa Alaikumus Salaam,
Based on what you have mentioned, If you believe that there is a strong possibility that you can be unjust to your future family if you become married, then it is better to avoid marriage at this time.
And Allah knows best
Mufti Waseem Khan